Sooooo. This is my page (Meghan) on her blog. I will write whatever I want on here. On this page. She has to deal with it. So will you. Mhmm. [2/17/12 2:26 p.m.] Well. Not much to say now, so. Bye for todayyyy. [5:12 p.m.] I’m on skype with Leah right now. She’s so cute :3 I love talking to her all the time. Her laugh is very cute, too. Earlier today, she threw her sister’s backpack on the porch, so I told her sister that she could throw Leah’s backpack out there, too, to get even. BUT. Instead of grabbing her backpack, she grabs her carebear. The one that I gave Leah. So that wasn’t very nice. :c But oh well. That’s it for now xD One last thing. She’s listening to music. I can tell because she rocks her head up and down c: [5:47 p.m.] Leah has to go to tkd now :c I always hate it when she has to leave. It makes me really sad. She said she’ll be back around 7ish, so I hope the time will go by fast.
[2/18/12 1:40 a.m.] So it took me like, 3 hours to edit a video. And here Leah is, complaining about my song choice. >.< RUDE. But it’s okay. Because I love her. so. It was about my house. Almost 10 minutes and now, I’m pretty tired. Oh well. It’s nice staying up with her.[10:12 a.m.] I just woke up about 10 minutes ago, and Leah is already on her way to the shore. I wish she didn’t have to go because I really wanted to be with her all throughout the break. It kind of sucks. I also wanted to have like a lunch or dinner date with her, but I don’t think we’ll be able to do it now because she’s at the shore :c I really wish she didn’t have to go. She says she has wifi there, but I just don’t know :c Well. I love you, Leah. I’ll be on here more throughout the day <3 [12:24 p.m.] Leah doesn’t have wifi right now. She texted me on her sister’s phone. I really hope they can get it running and everything because I really miss her. I miss seeing her face. It sucks. Leah, I miss you :(
[2:03 p.m.] Come back home, Leah. I miss you so much :c
[2/20/12] Leah and I are going to have our dinner date tonight. :3 We still need to decide what we’re gonna have, though. So. Last night I got to skype with Leah for a while. It was very nice :3 I missed seeing her. We both smiled a lot, and it was great to see her smiling. I love her smile. Now she’s out somewhere. It might be the mall? I’m not entirely sure, but hopefully she’ll be back soooooon.
[2/21/12 5:52 a.m.] Well. It’s Tuesday. That means school today. Leah just texted me now c: So last night was pretty nice. We got to do our little dinner date. She was so cute last night :3 We’re gonna do another one of these on my birthday c: So a birthday diner, and I am very excited for that. She’s supposed to get my package thing in the mail today, so let’s hope she does. I hope she’ll like it. I’m kinda worried that she’ll think it’s weird or something :s Let’s hope not. [5:39 p.m.] Leah got my package in the mail today :3 She liked what I got her and I’m glad she did. I was worried she thought it would be weird or something. So that’s great that she didn’t. I’m on skype with her right now and she’s very cute c: <3 [9:47 p.m.] We’re on skype again. She’s actually on her ipod, not her laptop because she had to go. I love her so much, and she said that she loved the ring I got her and I’m so glad she does akls;djfsdkl She’s so sweet <3
[2/22/12 4:04 p.m.] I got home about 7 minutes ago. Just waiting for Leah to get her butt home. She should hurry up. At least, that’s what I think. :3 I’m gonna ask her if we could eat breakfast together on Friday. It was her idea, actually- to eat breakfast over skype c: I really want to do that. OH she’s actually eating breakfast now. I am just so good c;
[2/23/12 6:54 a.m.] I don’t feel the best right now >.< Blah. Hopefully I’ll feel better soon. So Leah and I get to have breakfast tomorrow c: That’ll be nice. I’ll probably ask her if we can get off skype today at 8, because I’m really tired, and then we can get lots of sleep and feel good in the morning. I’m pretty tired, and I still have a towel over my head and I have to leave in 34 minutes…and I still have to make my lunch klsdfjsdflkasd. Whatever. I’m going bowling for gym again today. So I don’t have to really do anything, yaaaaaay. I wish I could go back to bed -.- [7:40 p.m.] I’m talking to Leah now and we’re getting off in 20 minutes so we can go to bed earlier. Ugh. Also I had to write out my poem that I wrote and I didn’t want to because I always feel embarrassed with my writing, and that she’d just laugh at it :s Meh.
[2/24/12 3:50 p.m.] Guess whose letters I got in the maillll :3
[2/25/12 9:36 a.m.] Soooooooo I’m up so early because today I’m going out with Kaite and Elsie for my birthdayyyyyyyy (which is in two days :3) It’ll be fun I’m going to Olive Garden with them, my mom, and Danielle, and then they’re coming over to sleep over. sladkjfasd funnnn c: Haha I’m such a kid. Oh welllllllllll.
[2/26/12 10:17 a.m.] So tomorrow is my birthday :3 And Leah got me two presents and I think that is just so sweet <3 Also, she’s not texting me back and I need my nerd, and it’s not a good feeling not knowing where she is at all. It’s sad and it kind of upsets me, because I love her. :c [9:35 p.m.] So I just got off skype with Leah, and it sucks when we have to, but I found out Leah bought me a rose. I’ve never gotten any type of flower from anyone and it’s just the most sweet and cute thing anyone has done. She’s so wonderful. I love you, Leah.
[2/27/12 5:10 p.m] So it’s my birthday c: And my mom and Leah’s mom talked on the phone for a little while, and hopefully they’ll be able to work something out so we can meet. I’m actually nervous that we will meet because I don’t want Leah to be disappointed in seeing me. I’m not skinny, and that’s what worries me the most. I don’t want her thinking like,”ew. that’s her?” And. I’m so scared and nervous. :s [7:37 p.m.] She might sing to me. She might sing happy birthday to me. sdklafjaskledjfsldkfjs [8:34 p.m.] She sang to me. Omg I loved it soooooo much. She doesn’t even know. I keep replaying how she sang it to me in my head. I loved it. I loved it. I loved it. dasklfjsdeklsdjf Just. omg.
[s/29/12 5:17 p.m.] Happy leap year. I stayed home sick. My throat hurt really bad, and ugh. I hate staying home a lot because I don’t want to get behind on my homework, but I needed to stay home. I wish Leah was here to take care of me. I know she would, too. Hopefully in the summer, I’ll be able to go there. I think I will, actually. Leah sent me some things today <3 She got me presents for my birthday. So sweet of her. I love her. [9:10 p.m.] I just got off skype with Leah. She read One Fish. Two Fish. Red Fish. Blue Fish. to me, and I loved it. I love when she reads to me. She is so cute. :3 She is so adorable. She always is. She said when I come to her house, she’ll have lots of books, and she’ll read to me every night. I hope so. I’d love it. She also told me that her mom is going to record us meeting klsdjfaskldfjdskl. I thought that was so cute. It’s a very good idea <3
[3/1/12 6:01 a.m.] Well. I’m still sick. My throat hurts. And I just sneezed twice. I don’t feel like going to school, but I need to. And then I have behind the wheel after school for 2 hours. And Leah has to leave around then. So that means we won’t be able to see each other until 7 p.m. :c That isn’t so nice. I hope I’ll get her package on Friday, it’ll make me feel better. [6:37 p.m.] I just got home and I’m very tired. Wah. :c I could fall asleep now. I think that once my homework will be done, Leah will be back…I hopeeeeee. Behind the wheel was okay. Lots more classes to go, though. Ewwwww. >.< Okay, I’m gonna go sleep now (lol not) I wish. :p
Oh, and Leah is very cute. Okay bye.
[3/3/12 2:59 p.m.] So I had to wake up at 7:50 this morning and I went to bed late. I had to wake up for Driver’s Ed. D: For three hours. I was in such a terrible mood. But at like, 2, I got Leah’s package <3333 There were so many thinggggs. She got me a birthday card. And a stuffed German Shepherd. c: Which is so nice because it reminds me of Mac. She got me headphones, which I am wearing them right now, :3 She got me blue hair dye and letters and pictures and a rose <3 I love it. I love it all. I’ll be dyeing my hair later tonight.. like really later. Elsie is also coming over, but that’s okay cause Leah said she likes Elsie so that’s good.
[3/5/12 6:46 p.m.] So. Today wasn’t very good. These three guys, Gram, Spencer, and Austin, were kind of picking on me. The kept saying my name in a high, obnoxious voice. I hated it. I hated it so much, and I bet they’ll continue to do it.And that it’ll get worse. It isn’t fair, though. I mean, I haven’t done anything to them. What did I do to deserve that? I feel horrible. I’m such an easy target to pick on, because I can’t stand up for myself. I get too scared.
[3/9/12] Sorry for being gone so long. I couldn’t get onto her blog at my grandma’s and I don’t know why. Well. I stayed home from school today, because last night my sister had to go to the hospital and it was just starting to get too late. I really needed that sleep, though. I can’t wait to webcam with Leah. I miss her. A whole bunch.
[3/16/12 5:24 p.m.] I’m so sorry I’ve been gone for sooooo long. I just. I can’t get onto the computer from my grandma’s :c I miss Leah so much. It’s horrible. And I’m only here for the weekend. Another week without seeing her, that means. :/ We did pass 4 months of being together two days ago, though. Which is very, very nice. I love her so much. I also think she should listen to We are Young. It’s a very nice song. I’m listening to it right now.
[3/18/12 8:54 a.m.] So yesterday I went to the mall with Elsie and my mom. I went clothes shopping. Ew. I got a few things. I got this one skirt because I thought it looked nice. I also got a beanie from Zummiez. It’s white with black stripes. Leah has the same one. We’re soulmates because of that. I also got an icee. yum. I got to talk to her yesterday. With Elsie. Elsie and I sang to really stupid songs so obnoxiously. Later Leah was saying that I seemed like a stranger to her. I don’t know, that made me cry a bit. I just. Can’t do something in front of her. She knows what I’m talking about. I don’t want to be left because of it. I know she says she won’t, but it’s hard to believe. I’m not saying I don’t believe her. I do. It’s just something I’m so scared of. I have the best person in this whole world. I know I do. I’m afraid my weight would just ruin it all. All of it. I don’t ever want to lose her. She’s my nerd. She is so adorable. So sweet, so lovable. Caring. Careful with my feelings. She’s so perfect. She makes me laugh. She can make me feel so much better if I’m in a bad mood. I don’t want this all gone because of me. Because of my weight. I need her. I need her so much. I won’t be happy without her. She’s part of me. A big part. A huge part of me. Of my life. She doesn’t even know. I don’t want her to leave me because of this. She could do so much better than me, though. But I will say this. No one else can love her the way I do. Ever. No one. Just me. I love her so much. I can’t even describe it. But I love her so, so much. I wish I could just. Explain it. It’s impossible to, though. I hope we’ll meet this summer, but I don’t think our mom’s have been talking about it. Which worries me. What if. No. I need to see her. I need to get there. I need to.
[3/19/12 12:29 p.m.] I stayed home today because I didn’t feel so good. :s But Leah also stayed home. So that’s nice. We talked on the phone a lot already, and we started talking about us moving in an apartment and a house and having dogs. What got me so happy is the word, “ours”. Our house. Our dogs. Our bed. I like the idea of us being together so long. She also was saying about with proposing xD She said she’ll just like, throw the ring at me and yeah. lol how wonderful. We talked about this for a long time, but I liked talking about it. It was so nice. I loved it. I loved it so much. And she also said how it would be nice. She’d come home to our doggies, and me. I’d have to make supper, though. Of course xD I wouldn’t mind. I’d like to. We could have supper together every night. Go to sleep together every night. Say I love you every night. Kiss each other. Hold each other. Just. Perfect. I would love that so, so much. I love her so much. I could see this happening. I don’t want anyone else. I just want my Leah. My Leah. Not anyone else’s. I’m going to be selfish when it comes to her. She is mine. <3
[3/20/12 5:56 a.m.] Last night was terrible. Leah’s mom made her get off the phone. I couldn’t help but cry. I need her. Also, I slept horribly. I got to sleep, but I’d keep waking up like, every hour. I couldn’t stay asleep, and I was so uncomfortable, and I need to go home. I need my bed. And I need to be able to skype with Leah. I miss doing that so much. It isn’t fair. I really want to see her again. I miss her. So, so much. I want to see my nerd again. It’s not fair. Strangers even get to see her. But I can’t. Why can’t I? I want to so bad. I want to hold her hand. I want to cuddle with her. I want to kiss her. I want to fall asleep with her. I
want need her. [4:03 p.m.] So I don’t have much to say because I’m so tired. And I have homework, but I will say I got an 83% on my history test. That’s very good for me. I suck at history. It’s my worst subject. So that was nice. Gram and Austin were stupid as usual. Both commented rudely on my hair. They should just fuck off.
[3/23/12 6:18 a.m.] Ahhhh. I haven’t been on for a few days D: I’m sorry. I’ve just been so tired, I’d get home, do the things I needed to do, and get into bed and talk to Leah on the phone. I love talking to her. She’s so adorable. So, so cute. I got my permit yesterday :3 I can legally drive now c: Maybe I’ll be able to drive home after I get to my grandma and grandpa’s to get picked up. I’m a bit nervous about it, though. I mean, it’s not my first time driving. I’ve driven before without my permit.. on gravel roads, but now I’m going to be in town. And on the highway. Pretty intimidating. :s
[3/27/12] I’m gonna cry. My day is so horrible. I just wrote stuff and I pressed cancel. Also I haven’t been able to write here for four days. And I also don’t feel good. To sum up what I wrote before I clicked cancel: I got the four geeseys. I know it isn’t a real word. I don’t care. Leah renamed one Crescendo. I got to see Leah again. And I’m gonna go lie down because I don’t feel good. Sorry.
[3/29/12 6:12 a.m.] We’re so close, Leah.
[4/2/12 5:58 p.m.] I’ve been such a busy bee lately. Wow. Did I just say that? Because I think I did. Well. The plan for me going to Leah’s isn’t going to work, and after completely losing it yesterday.. twice.. I feel a bit better. I was crying so hard, I couldn’t breathe so good. I’m sorry about that, Leah. I just love you so much. So we think Leah is going to have to come down here. I hope this’ll work. I need this so bad. I love you, Leah [8:26 p.m.] Just let me fucking die.
[4/3/12 7:09 p.m.] so tireddddd. Ugh. Had a busy day. I got someone shoved into me in the hall today going to English. Stupid people. Also. Someone put my number in the bathroom stall at my school ._. What the fuck?! Really? How did they even get my number. Wah. I hate my school. Also, Leah. For what happened last night, it’s okay. And I’m glad I could make you smile and laugh before I had to go.
That was my goal. c: what? You didn’t see that <—- ;) I love making you smile and laugh. It comes easy to me.
[4/6/12 9:55 p.m.] I just don’t care anymore. I was completely fine 10 minutes ago, but now I’m crying and I’m so upset. And I hate that. I hate how I am. Why can’t I be tough? Why do I have to be so sensitive and emotional to everything? Every little thing. I’d say it’s time for my personal blog.
[4/23/12 12:13 a.m.] I’m sorry I haven’t been writing. :c wah. The phone went off. No. I wanted to sleep with you :( Aw. I’m really tired. I think I’ll actually write here tomorrow. Goodnight<3 p.s. I hope you like your new background <333
[4/24/12 5:23 p.m.] I just got off skype with Leah, and once she was gone, I started to cry. I really didn’t want her to leave. My eyes got all red. I just. Now she’ll be going to tkd at 6. That’s not fair. I want to talk to her. Don’t leave me, Leah. I wanted you to be here. I need you.